The feeling of being alone is sometimes can stab you in the back like being stabbed with a sharp knife in the darkest place

"If you are lonely when you're alone, you are in bad company" - Jean-Paul Sartre

The feeling of being alone is sometimes can stab you in the back like being stabbed with a sharp knife in the darkest place.

It hurts but you can't shout and tell it to others,

because they won't hear you.

It bleeds but you can't do anything about it,

because you can't think of anything.

The pain is not remain the same like it used to,

because you were alone and it was dark..

You wish you could see light.

You wish you had people, 1 or 2.

You wish you could heal your body and stop the bleeding.

You wish for something, something that may not exist.

You wish you could cry, but why bother?

The feeling of being alone is sometimes can stab you in the back like being stabbed with a sharp knife in the darkest place.

Then you realized that you died already, before you could think of how hurt it is.

:)

I found it not easy to fall for someone. I found it hard.
That makes me to make a promise to myself,
until I can find and meet a man who can make my world turns upside down,
who can make my butterflies inside my belly fluttered,
the one who can make me a better person than I was,
and respect his family as much as I do,
then
...


:)

Lost in Faith

"Faith: not wanting to know what is true" - Friedrich Nietzsche 


I lost my faith and I just did.
Call me a sinner or anything you want.
I'm ready to be the one who listens to your judgment.
I'm not perfect, but I just want to be a good person.
For you,
For anyone,
For others.

I know I feel hollow.
But, something inside me kept screaming, asking me if I could find what I've been looking for.
Something's missing.
Was trying to get on the right track, got slipped away instead.

I'm not a saint.
Maybe a sinner.
Alcohol and cigarette start to tickle.
Hell welcomed me and all I could say is "hello"